Will I Never Learn?

Really?  Why do I always think that it will be different this time?  That I can live my life anywhere close to what I did before my son came along?  We are still on vacation, and I thought it would be a lot of fun to get out of the condo and take the entire crew (that would be me and 5 kiddos) to the mall.  It's not like the mall was crowded today...it was a school day, and we arrived before lunchtime.  And we weren't really "shopping," just window browsing and stopping off for a treat.  By the time we left the mall with whatever dignity I had left a short time later, the entire mall was cheering with our departure.  Okay, so that may be exaggerating, but just a little bit.  It's days like today that I fantasize about downsizing and finding enough extra money each month to hire a full time nanny, (for trips such as today), and a house keeper.  :)

Final Note:  Please don't think that I don't love my son like crazy!  I do!  Just keep in mind that this is my safe place to vent, and the best therapy that I can afford.  ;)

Here We Go Again!

I have decided to start the newest protocol recommended by my son's DAN! (Defeat Autism Now!) doctor.  I will start very slowly.  I have been hesitant to start anything new because my son is very sensitive to everything, and he's been pretty level lately.  BUT, the past two days have been rough.  Let me start by saying that we are on vacation and, although I've tried to keep his routine close to the same, I'm sure he is feeling the change.  I decided to do something fun for him yesterday and I took him to the aquarium.  He usually LOVES the calming effects of the water and fish, but I forgot to take into account that it is spring break where we are right now and the aquarium was packed with noisy kids.  I should have just turned around to leave, but I was meeting a friend and her kids there, so I thought we would get through.  Uugh...it may have been the worst meltdown yet.  Actually, it was a continuous series of meltdowns.  All of us (my older kids and I) were exhausted by the time we left.  Therefore, it has prompted me to start on the special blend of homeopathics that his doctor sent with us on vacation.  There are other things that we are supposed to add also, but, again, I am going to go s-l-o-w.  Wish us luck!